Having a ...day.

PMS is here in full force unfortunately. Things are weird.

Things that would be different...

Less laundry. But then I couldn't smell his shirts.

Could do what I want. But would only have myself to blame when everything goes bust.

No more worries about disappointing someone.

No waiting for him to come home from work, wondering if the house is clean enough, did I do enough during the day. But then no more waiting for him to come home from work.

Marriage is hard. We're in a hard place right now. He's a great person. I love him. Not so sure he loves me. What do you do then? Do I be the bigger person and let him go, or let him stay and be unhappy?

Might be all PMS but who knows. What do you do with yourself after being not just yourself for 16 years? And who would catch the spiders?