Okay, obviously this is stress stuff. It has to be. I've been experiencing what I can best describe as PMS but this is the week *after* my period. I'm getting headaches, feeling sick to my stomach, having stomach cramping, sleeping badly and feeling totally off balance in my emotions. The only thing different right now is all the running around and stress I'm dealing with. Well, I don't feel stress per se...but I have to be experiencing some somewhere along the line here.

Today I went into a rage for no apparent reason. I got mad at everyone and everything and I don't know why. It felt pretty sucky. I was very close to calling my therapist again and getting some happy pills.

And we're still dealing with Maddie's clingy-ness. She won't let us out of her sight for very long. She screams and hangs on to the van door on Monday's when I have to go to work an hour or so before my husband gets home. One hour! And she's here, at home, with grandma. If we even mention going out together for coffee or whathaveyou, she breaks down and cries inconsolably. She must have one of us lying with her at night to fall asleep. Again, if we can't do it when she needs us to, the crying and screaming starts. I'm not one who can leave my kids screaming for me, but at the same time we've never really changed plans completely for her. After much discussion usually we can get her to see the light and stay with one of her grandma's with Gage and Mason. So it's not like the crying episodes get her the power or anything like that. So what is it?! We've been trying to go with her emotions and be with her and not let her freak for long periods. We've done all that stuff and it hasn't worked. I'm not sure where to go from here. She's afraid we won't come back. Of course this is harder than usual when, lately, I need a night off with my husband. Even a few hours.

I swear I'll stop complaining some day soon. Really I will. I lead a relatively charmed life.