Yesterday, Scott asked me if, logically, I really wanted another baby. And I answered *logically* no. But deciding to have a baby, or another baby, can't ever be a logical decision. If we were all Vulcan and thought only logically we'd likely have died out before now. Deciding to have a baby is a decision of the heart, not so much the brain. But seeing as the heart tends to be a bit loopy and will follow rainbows, the mind is a good balancing mechanism.
I know there are many reasons for us not to have another baby. And there are reasons it would be perfectly okay for us to have another. I don't know which way we'll go; today I tend to be done lol.
My tooth is bothering me. I finally made an appt so in a week and a half, the dentist will look in my mouth and see his next vacation lol I need two crowns, one probably won't be a crown but an implant (ouch! both in my mouth and my pocketbook lol) It's near the back and isn't visible much, but it needs fixed. The ONLY tooth I've ever had get this bad is also the only one I've ever had a root canal in. I'm hearing since that this is common and root canals aren't always good things. The less damaged tooth is right in front. It's just starting, but I do think it'll need a crown as the filling the other dentist put in initially fell out and it's looking worse. And who knows how many cavities lol I know this is totally MY fault. After a couple kids, I just got busy and would forget to brush at night and/or in the morning, plus I'm already predisposed to dental issues as evidenced by the many visits to the dentist I had as a kid. ugh. I don't have dental fears, per se, but I don't relish the thought of many needles and drills lol
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Monday, August 20, 2007
Wow has it been a while! Life's been busy I suppose :)
We finally did get moved and we've been here since..I guess it was May lol. It was an adjustment at first, but I think we've all managed to get acclimated. The kids are doing well..we're running back and forth from town quite a bit to make sure they still get to see friends and such. It's funny, most of their friends just want to come out here though.
I had my first small garden this summer, it's done okay but I'm hoping to put more planning into it for next year and go bigger with better results. I just did tomatoes, peppers, cukes, etc.. Maddie tried her hand and grew tomatoes, strawberries and watermelons. The melons are still coming on. I need to do soil testing for next year and get some compost worked into the ground. We have a nice, large, sunny area to expand the garden in and I'm hoping I do better next year lol. The weeds just had me going all the time!
Lily's doing great! I was so freaking excited I cried about a week ago when she finally went from tummy lying to sitting. We'd been working on that seemingly forever at home and at therapy and last Sunday BAM she just *did* it. She was on her tummy on the floor and I was reading Mace a book on the couch...I looked down and there she was, sitting up. I started asking everyone "did you sit her up?"...when they all said no I just felt so much relief and happiness. I kept watching her and finally actually saw her do it later that night. It's hard to explain just HOW excited we were to people who don't have kids without developmental disabilities. We'd waiting so long and worked so hard on that, it was just...amazing. She's trying to talk and loves to pull up and stand. She likes to do that at the edge of the bed. I truly think (trying not to jinx myself) she's going to do great. I don't think she'll be affected in a major way by the Downs. She just seems to love learning new things and tries so many new things...she really and truly is a blessing. I recall a friend saying that to me after she was born and I couldn't see how having to cope with this would ever be a blessing, but SHE is a blessing. We're lucky to have her.
Another year of homeschooling is upon us..eeks! I never feel like I do enough in that respect.
And as you can see from the ticker above lol I'm working on getting healthier. Sure, it's been ups and downs but so far this year I'm down about 25 lbs. Still a ways to go but I'm trying not to beat myself up about it. Scott and I have this joking "deal" where if I lose enough weight we'll have another baby lol I don't know how serious he is, and to be honest, I'm feeling more and more content with being done myself. And lest you think he's a big meanie for this "deal" I was the one saying I'd like to have a "normal" pregnancy at a more normal weight. I do feel my weight contributed to things like my blood sugars being high and all. Again, I don't know that we're going to have another baby. Five kids is just..a lot of kids lol I still think about the Downs thing and how it'd be better for her to have more sibs, but then I'm scared about the Downs thing too. I know odds say lightning won't strike twice but I guess once you get that first strike, you're more leary of the next storm.
Anyway, that's where we are. We're doing well..I hope to write more here. If anyone's reading, then fine..and if not, fine too :) I just need somewhere to compose my thoughts (I just typo-ed "compost" and I guess many of my thoughts would qualify as compost lol)
We finally did get moved and we've been here since..I guess it was May lol. It was an adjustment at first, but I think we've all managed to get acclimated. The kids are doing well..we're running back and forth from town quite a bit to make sure they still get to see friends and such. It's funny, most of their friends just want to come out here though.
I had my first small garden this summer, it's done okay but I'm hoping to put more planning into it for next year and go bigger with better results. I just did tomatoes, peppers, cukes, etc.. Maddie tried her hand and grew tomatoes, strawberries and watermelons. The melons are still coming on. I need to do soil testing for next year and get some compost worked into the ground. We have a nice, large, sunny area to expand the garden in and I'm hoping I do better next year lol. The weeds just had me going all the time!
Lily's doing great! I was so freaking excited I cried about a week ago when she finally went from tummy lying to sitting. We'd been working on that seemingly forever at home and at therapy and last Sunday BAM she just *did* it. She was on her tummy on the floor and I was reading Mace a book on the couch...I looked down and there she was, sitting up. I started asking everyone "did you sit her up?"...when they all said no I just felt so much relief and happiness. I kept watching her and finally actually saw her do it later that night. It's hard to explain just HOW excited we were to people who don't have kids without developmental disabilities. We'd waiting so long and worked so hard on that, it was just...amazing. She's trying to talk and loves to pull up and stand. She likes to do that at the edge of the bed. I truly think (trying not to jinx myself) she's going to do great. I don't think she'll be affected in a major way by the Downs. She just seems to love learning new things and tries so many new things...she really and truly is a blessing. I recall a friend saying that to me after she was born and I couldn't see how having to cope with this would ever be a blessing, but SHE is a blessing. We're lucky to have her.
Another year of homeschooling is upon us..eeks! I never feel like I do enough in that respect.
And as you can see from the ticker above lol I'm working on getting healthier. Sure, it's been ups and downs but so far this year I'm down about 25 lbs. Still a ways to go but I'm trying not to beat myself up about it. Scott and I have this joking "deal" where if I lose enough weight we'll have another baby lol I don't know how serious he is, and to be honest, I'm feeling more and more content with being done myself. And lest you think he's a big meanie for this "deal" I was the one saying I'd like to have a "normal" pregnancy at a more normal weight. I do feel my weight contributed to things like my blood sugars being high and all. Again, I don't know that we're going to have another baby. Five kids is just..a lot of kids lol I still think about the Downs thing and how it'd be better for her to have more sibs, but then I'm scared about the Downs thing too. I know odds say lightning won't strike twice but I guess once you get that first strike, you're more leary of the next storm.
Anyway, that's where we are. We're doing well..I hope to write more here. If anyone's reading, then fine..and if not, fine too :) I just need somewhere to compose my thoughts (I just typo-ed "compost" and I guess many of my thoughts would qualify as compost lol)
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