tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40298952008-05-16T13:26:12.287-04:00Better Than Ice CreamCherylnoreply@blogger.comBlogger308125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-69719920623484127812008-05-16T13:22:00.000-04:002008-05-16T13:26:12.324-04:00So gardening season has seen it's first casualties. My cukes, cabbages and cauliflower have officially not made it. I'll have to buy the plants at the local nursery or diy store. They looked so good inside, but small, like everything else I've got. But the temps were right so I transplanted. Something "got" the cauliflower, I think the cukes and cabbages were still a bit small for whatever it Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-30779026589832925442008-04-12T10:16:00.002-04:002008-04-12T10:29:34.207-04:00We've been busy, busy, busy this week! The weather finally got nice enough to get outside and get started on our yard work. I planted, covered and mulched about 500 sq ft of flower beds out front. Scott and Gage used the brush hog to clean off a huge area of brush and such out back of our house, adding almost another full size yard to our existing yard. We laid out the square foot raised bed, Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-21345399890380340602008-02-27T12:28:00.002-05:002008-02-27T12:39:37.683-05:00Life's been crazy lately. Reallllly crazy lol. But we're dealing. It'll be okay in the end. It's just getting to that "end" that will be frustrating. Some financial problems have cropped up that we thought had "gone away"...funny how problems with money really never seem to just disappear on their own lol. Again, we'll manage and it'll end up okay, it's just trying to figure things out and work Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-68209617573700879052008-02-05T14:41:00.000-05:002008-02-05T15:00:31.723-05:00I'm feeling really good today...I've lost 9 lbs over the last week and a half! I'm going to leave my ticker above as is, because I'd last changed it in mid November (after that awful sickness that lasted for almost three weeks..os obviously some of that was illness related and came back pretty quickly lol) I'll be back at that 34 lb loss in a few days, so it's all okay lol I'm sitting at 32 lbs Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-7173125759062760722008-01-24T11:29:00.000-05:002008-01-24T11:43:52.308-05:00Okay, I have to quit kvetching about another baby. My husband is pretty much done and I have to just get on with things. I can't stay in this place of longing and sadness forever, I have four other babies who need me right now! So in that vein... I'm planning my garden this year and I'm just loving it! I'm going to try my hand at square foot gardening instead of the typical gardening set up. Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-62039452519523950102008-01-18T12:45:00.000-05:002008-01-18T13:00:25.652-05:00Since I'm fairly sure no one is reading here lol I'm going to rant on... So I'm not sure what is up with my up and down desire for another baby. Just within this morning, I went from thinking I was really done and felt good about it to wanting to be pregnant RIGHT NOW! lol I have no idea what's up with me. I know I'm trying to let it go and let whatever is meant to happen, happen. But, for manyCherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-61061183058908944692008-01-08T12:37:00.000-05:002008-01-08T12:39:00.257-05:00I've had a very....enlightening few weeks. I've been excited about this year because I've finally decided to put some work into ME. And not in the usual sense, not concerning weight or appearance. I'm going to put more time into figuring out what I can do to be happier and mentally healthier. I've started reading some books that have already had an impact on me, on my thinking anyway. I'm trying Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-29379488290070446822007-12-10T11:36:00.000-05:002007-12-10T11:38:40.661-05:00I'm feeling like I have a lot of "stuff" to get out, like I need to do some writing and vent my spleen a bit. Not sure about what though lol so that puts a damper on things. I'm feeling pretty good with life lately, content I guess. I feel like things are going pretty well right now. It's two weeks until Christmas, we didn't use any credit cards this year and we're pretty much ready for the big Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-31774536796011666712007-11-14T18:59:00.000-05:002007-11-14T19:11:11.457-05:00*cough cough* Well, I think I've finally managed to get to the other side of this illness. I suppose it was the flu. It hit Maddie, Lily and I pretty hard. Over two weeks of feeling like crap...uber fun. So today I finally took the first step in possibly getting Mace a diagnosis. He's got quite a few eccentric behaviors that I feel are starting to affect him more and more. I'm betting he's on Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-66616641186637642812007-10-29T12:34:00.000-04:002007-10-29T12:48:07.303-04:00Okay, not much more baby whining. After some more talking, I'm just going to say I think we WILL have another baby at some point, likely within the next year and a half! And that's all I'm going to say (he's seeming to come around, I think it's mainly that he feels he'd like another, but then he worries about the particulars like time and such). And I don't want to dwell on it lest I jinx Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-21833267672626534452007-10-26T14:05:00.001-04:002007-10-26T14:15:02.140-04:00God, I need to get this out. I need to get over it is what I need. But I just can't. I feel a sadness so deep I can't even begin to explain it. I think about not having another baby (yeah, yeah, THAT again) and I feel a physical emptiness in my chest. Man, I can't do this. I seriously wonder if there are women who have to go through therapy to get over this desire. I hate to go on and on about Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-71313401253570360902007-10-04T13:33:00.001-04:002007-10-04T13:42:09.854-04:00Okay, okay...so it was PMS. I thought about deleting the post, but ya know, it's honest and honesty is okay, even when wrong. It's how I felt, right or no. I guess I tend to overreact (nahhh, me?). One small fight and it's a slippery slope to "you don't love me!" lol. It's how I do. Anyway...today things are good. Kids bickering a bit, but who has kids who don't? I know they're good kids Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-77858657807143149192007-10-01T10:23:00.000-04:002007-10-01T10:31:34.051-04:00Having a ...day. PMS is here in full force unfortunately. Things are weird. Things that would be different... Less laundry. But then I couldn't smell his shirts. Could do what I want. But would only have myself to blame when everything goes bust. No more worries about disappointing someone. No waiting for him to come home from work, wondering if the house is clean enough, did I do enough Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-78788480364389325792007-09-22T11:40:00.001-04:002007-09-22T11:40:31.490-04:00I’ve been thinking a lot lately about other people. I know it’s a lost cause, trying to figure people out, but I keep plugging along hoping at some point I’ll stumble upon some epiphany. It hasn’t happened yet, but maybe someday… What’s bugging me lately is the perception other people have about what we’re trying to do, how we live, how we raise our kids, etceterah etceterah… Okay, and when I’mCherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-52209977803825651522007-09-11T09:08:00.000-04:002007-09-11T09:11:33.756-04:00I swear, I think I’m bipolar on this one issue lol. Of course I had to catch a repeat of one of those Duggar family specials. If you haven’t seen them, this family has 17 kids and they do shows on TLC about how they live, etc… As a by the by, if you do catch these types of shows, look for the Heppners. They have 12 kids iirc and I just love them. The Duggars are a source of discourse and discord Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-30344164487936316542007-09-08T10:51:00.000-04:002007-09-08T10:54:25.227-04:00Hit my lowest weight in a looong while and all I want to do is eat. Everything. Ugh. This weight thing is hard. I can’t get people to understand that. Well, people who haven’t struggled with weight. It’s really hard to keep going, seems like such an uphill battle and…I don’t know. Maybe just having one of those days. I think we’ve decided to be done. I feel good about it but I guess all the Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-63789901774297607452007-08-22T15:13:00.000-04:002007-08-22T15:24:57.092-04:00Yesterday, Scott asked me if, logically, I really wanted another baby. And I answered *logically* no. But deciding to have a baby, or another baby, can't ever be a logical decision. If we were all Vulcan and thought only logically we'd likely have died out before now. Deciding to have a baby is a decision of the heart, not so much the brain. But seeing as the heart tends to be a bit loopy and Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-49732238783751524882007-08-20T12:47:00.000-04:002007-08-20T13:06:47.989-04:00Wow has it been a while! Life's been busy I suppose :) We finally did get moved and we've been here since..I guess it was May lol. It was an adjustment at first, but I think we've all managed to get acclimated. The kids are doing well..we're running back and forth from town quite a bit to make sure they still get to see friends and such. It's funny, most of their friends just want to come out Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-61814438543551976922007-05-26T18:02:00.000-04:002007-05-26T18:24:01.531-04:00Whew! It's been a few weeks! So we are officially MOVED IN! I can hardly believe we've actually done it. Still a few loose ends to tie up here and there, but for the most part we're settling in. A few bumps in the road in the form of my emotional ties to the old house and my concerns about moving the kids to the country, but things are looking up more and more all the time. We've been running Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-2825461701224471462007-04-27T20:53:00.000-04:002007-04-27T21:06:01.696-04:00Lily's ONE!! It's been a year already! Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-9539191384061921932007-04-02T22:07:00.000-04:002007-04-02T22:10:50.447-04:00So here are some pics of the new place! Work (still!) in progress. The flooring is done now as these pics were taken last week. Yes, it's small but I'm loving it already! This was mostly to show the new countertop dh put in for me :) Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-11093666039309085572007-03-17T22:24:00.000-04:002007-03-17T22:30:22.895-04:00Wow! I've been sorting and packing and just generally decluttering and it feels fab! Gotten rid of a lot of stuff, gave to Salvation Army, Freecycling...it just feels lighter around here. I think I'm enjoying it too much. This downsizing is going to be good for us, I know it. Truly, I think a lot of my stress and depression issues related to this house and the state of it. It wasn't dirty, or Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-62389880242575259902007-03-15T21:56:00.000-04:002007-03-15T22:28:07.816-04:00A couple sites I visit have recently had discussions on homesteading and what, ideally, is our goal or dream. I know that for now, we won't be close to real "homesteading". Even though I grew up (mostly) on a farm, I have to say I didn't really absorb lots of information. I was upstairs reading Sassy and Seventeen dreaming of my life in the Village as a writer lol. Funny how things have come Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-46793338825633410692007-03-14T19:36:00.000-04:002007-03-14T19:40:50.971-04:00So we have three weeks to move...yikes! This is going to be nuts. Packing and plumbing and flooring OH MY! I guess it's really going to happen!Cherylnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4029895.post-73148211457287288272007-03-10T12:31:00.000-05:002007-03-10T12:34:24.892-05:00It’s hard to explain my awakening desire to have a fifth baby. I had three, then I had Lily. I was sure I’d be content with four kids; it felt right on a soul level. The Downs threw me for a loop though. So now here I am, wanting to do it again. Not that I’m guaranteed 100% health. It’s just…hard to explain. This is what it’s like… You plan a trip to the Cheesecake Factory for your birthday. Cherylnoreply@blogger.com