I'm feeling really good today...I've lost 9 lbs over the last week and a half! I'm going to leave my ticker above as is, because I'd last changed it in mid November (after that awful sickness that lasted for almost three weeks..os obviously some of that was illness related and came back pretty quickly lol) I'll be back at that 34 lb loss in a few days, so it's all okay lol I'm sitting at 32 lbs total right now.

I was saying recently that I hate focusing on the number on the scale. It's hard to explain, but it feels so silly to worry about that. To feel that I'm defined by that. But it does motivate me, I'm not one of those people who can get internally motivated or feel motivated by occasional clothing looseness lol so I need that number to let me know I'm going in the right direction, making the right changes. I wish I weren't like this, but I am.

And as I've said ad nauseum, I'm not striving for skinny. Just to feel better and look better in my clothes is what I'm working on. The former moreso than the latter. I know my back pains and other assorted aches and pains are mainly due to my weight.

I guess, deep down, I'm also hoping it has a positive effect on my dh's desire to have another baby. I know he worries about my health and would just like me to lose some weight too...

Who knows lol