Not sure why I'm still posting here but I need someplace to vent...

Or rather, I think I need some primal scream therapy. It's all financial too. Just trying to figure out how to pay bills while staying home for a bit with this baby and things are just getting out of hand. We're not even halfway through the renovations on the new place and I'm super stressed about how we're going to sell the current house, or more likely how we're NOT going to sell it and how it's probably going to get ugly. We can't keep paying for it. We'll try selling it, of course, but looking at our local housing market and the way houses on our street just NEVER sell (the one two doors down from us has been on the market over a year, several others are approaching that 1 year mark...and none sell!) it's not looking likely.

That fat tax refund was sure nice, but it's all but gone now. I keep kicking myself for paying so much for the homebirth, but I just could NOT imagine doing it anywhere else. And that amount, while not trivial, wouldn't have made major inroads in our financial situation anyway.

I just wish someone would appear and tell me what the right decision is, where is the right place to point our focus.

I know right now, my focus should really be on this baby and enjoying the last couple months of my very last pregnancy. But I feel plagued with worry.

I'm just starting to feel like I can't breathe for all this "stuff". I need to be able to let it go...but the irony is that I tend to worry MORE about these issues when I'm pregnant, the very last time period in which I should be adding more worry and stress.

I'll be 32 weeks this Friday...hard to believe there are just 2 months left. I can't wait to go through labor again and meet this little person who's been kicking me all over the place, and going breech and transverse and every which way she can. I know when I see her, I'll be able to give some of these worries up, at least for a little while.