So here I am, almost 8 weeks pregnant! Hard to believe. It's still sinking in here, though the fatigue and nausea are doing a good job of convincing me.

I'm already wondering how to do this birth. We're pretty financially strapped with all the expenses of this move we're working toward. All those surprise clerical fees and higher than expected estimates have a way of adding up! I know it's around 2 grand to have a homebirth and I just don't know how to swing that this time. I'm crunching numbers because I really, really don't want to go the hospital route. The only hospital we have here is...not natural birth friendly and known for their incompetence. I am still willing to go talk to the midwife here who does my well woman care and who catches at the hospital, but I don't have high hopes.

On the moving front, the bill to move and set up the house is quite a bit higher than I thought it was going to be so we're stretched for that, but will likely have them move it late this week or early next. I'm starting to waffle about certain things, namely how the kids are going to handle a move to the country away from the handful of friends they have on our street. But we can't manage where we are now, we just can't. I have to get over these fears.

So in the meantime, I'm looking at maternity clothes and and worrying about how my mother in law is going to handle the news of our impending arrival. It's always fun in big mama's house!