I'm so stressed I don't even know where to begin.

Between bills piling up, Scott having this unexplained illness, juggling the kids around (yes, I had to take my mom up on her offer as my sister had an appointment this afternoon, so now I'm worried about my mom coping with all the kids) and now a concern about health insurance which was on shaky ground to begin with....aack!

Driving to work this morning, I just realized how focused I've been on our precarious financial situation. It's pretty much been my only focus lately. Homeschooling, enjoying time with my family, spending time with friends...it's all gone by the wayside while I obsess about how little money we have and how we're going to stretch it to pay bills.

I know this situation is of our own making, but certain things have made it even harder. It's little things like our house payment unexpectedly going up due to increases in taxes and insurance, it's the vehicle we had to purchase when our one and only (and paid off!) vehicle decided to have a meltdown and the increase in our car insurance. I mean, all these little stupid things just keep happening and it's just crazymaking!

I dunno. Whining sure doesn't help. I need to focus on the end we're working for, keep my eyes on the prize so to speak. We're hoping to sell the house and move out to the land by my mom and brother and do our sustainable living thing out there. It's this meantime that's so frustrating...